But it didn't pay me a wage. And we all know without a wage you can't do things like pay the rent or utility bills at home, eating I hear is quite important, and we definitely could not do something insane like save up for a wedding!
I've mentioned before that I took on a second job in January. Thats because with Adam working full time we're not entitled to anything that would help us like tax credits. So I had to work a second job to bring in those lovely pennies that would help pay the bills. And maybe if I could pay myself a little from the shop, that went into savings for the wedding/honeymoon/future.
I'm going to say that running a yarn shop would never have made me a rich person. I never wanted to be a rich person. I just wanted to be able to pay myself a living wage whilst enabling people to make the stuff they wanted. But hey ho, the people didn't want me to be able to live!
What frustrated me the most in my last two weeks... Besides the "vultures" grabbing at items because omg its 40% off everything!!!!! It was the false sympathy from people who only wanted to hear that my business had failed. That I was upset and sad. That I'd lost money. That I owed money.
Ha! Well, they were the ones upset! My business did not fail. It broke even. I could pay for everything every month apart from myself. I was slightly upset to close, but I feel it was a wise business decision, and I'm relived that I no longer have that burden. No, I didn't lose any money. With what I did manage to pay myself, plus the takings from the closing down sale, I've got my initial investment back. All my accounts were paid off, in full, I owe nothing to anyone (well apart from the last card machine/phone/electricity bill, but I can pay those easily!).
The thing that made me the most sad... Taking more money in those two weeks than I would normally take in two months. My highest taking days before these two weeks... Around £300. Every single one of those sale days was way more than that. And I can tell you £300 days did not happen very often. If they had, this would not have happened, all would be fine and dandy.
The worst part of closing day though... My mum phoning to say my great grandma had died that afternoon. I don't think there are many 31 year olds out there who can say they still had a great grandma, but I did. She was 96 years old, and I hadn't seen her about 4 years. She wasn't quite sure who I was, but when we told her, she grabbed hold of me, cried a little and then wouldn't let me go. She still insisted on calling me by my mum's name though, but it was ok. The best part of that visist was her showing me all the little things she was knitting and crocheting at the time. It clearly runs in the family!
I won't be going to the funeral, theres too much bad feeling between my family and that part of the family (something that happened 16 years ago at my Grandad's funeral... Yup, my great grandma outlived my grandad), plus travel to Kent etc etc etc.
Its been an interesting week, clearing the shop out (my dining room is now full of bags of wool and haberdashery), and just being at one job! And I've got tomorrow (Saturday) off, and I have no idea what to do with the day.
And my knitting mojo has returned, and I finished a sock! Yay me!
Also, I'd just like to take a moment to brag about how awesome my friends are. They gave up days off to come and help me run the shop on the last day, throw things into bags, lug stuff back to the flat and keep me from tearing my hair out. Bea and Harry travelled up from the New Forest to help out, which is just so awesome. Laura, as always, helped all weekend and was a great provider of hugs. Victoria helped move the ribbons to the florist. Kerensa (the florist) and her mum helped move stuff to the flat on Sunday, and Lou helped move all that too, and then took the fat quarters to sell to her work colleagues! Christine (my boss) provided treats to keep me going, Andrew and Bev provided support. David was a great help throughout the whole process, changing my way of thinking and helping me calm down after the more difficult customers.
And of course, my family who have been at the end of the phone to provide support, even if they couldn't be here physically.
Adam has been the major support, coz I live with him, obviously! He's been there through the tears of frustration, through moving the shop from one unit to another, giving up at least three sets of holiday to help out, helping me add stuff up in Excel to show the business wasn't growing (even if it was breaking even). For saying goodbye to his friends and turning off the Playstation when I went into the living room on Sunday morning (1am), sobbing my heart out and needing cuddles. I'll never be able to thank him enough for that, and its one of the reasons I'm looking forward to marrying his face off!